If Smiles could Bleed...

 I'd be Laughing

The Deep, It Tries to Keep

I am wandering yet again. Walking in what feels like a mix of Air and Water.

My eyes yet to adjust, to this new kind of Darkness. . .

Where do I reside? What is this place?

Am I lost forever? I ask the unending Void.

I could feel familiar spirits watching. Waiting.

My Soul on a Precipice. My Heart on the Uneasy Scale.

How many Steps more, to get out of this Hell?

"Keep Going!" SpiritBird whispers to my Heart.

Every step forward is Unsure. Each footfall, heavier than the last.

Hope is small in my Chest.

I can now hear a type of Water in the Distance. Immediately, I Yearn to swim instead of keeping up this torturous pace!

I walk faster and faster, My legs like a Liquid Determination, they chant into the Dark.

I can make it. I will make it.

THERE.

The air grows thick as My soles become increasingly wet with each step.

“Ah!” My weakened legs slip into a pool of unknown Deep

and I am then consumed.

I open my eyes to a familiar light, like a moon beneath the surface,

I am hypnotized by its sheer beauty.

Everything Is Light, Everything like Love.

My chest begins to swell as I begin to feel like a star again! I am warm, maybe I am. . .

Home?

Then it tethered Me, Like rope,

Ankles bound, I am Sent under!

I Panic, I choke, Sinking down the abyss, I know

I am spent. I know I grow limp.

'You must fight!' SpiritBird says.

I Do cry. I Do Struggle. I am downed, as I have been deceived yet again!

"Why? !" I cry out. "Why? Cant I just rest? !" But I am taken away and I am indeed Falling.

I adapt to Breathe in this hellish scape,

as I continue down into the Murk.

My Vision growing Dark.

"You are Mine. and I am Yours." Something of Many Tongues says.

I am then pulled Deeper.

"Fight!" SpiritBird grows farther away, I sense her straining to reach my mind.

"You and Me. Me and You. We are like the Same." ManyTongue Speaks.

I twist this way and that, "I don't know what you are talking about! Release Me! "

My voice cracks in its vibrational shell. My Intensity wavering, my Power, uncertain. . .

If I am caught, why not Be Consumed, Then? Why not Rest?

The thoughts hang on my lashed lids and make them Heavy.

Why not see this OtherMoon, then?

"I can save You but You must save me first! I am old and I am dying. I am the last of my Kind."

I take a breath In and Exhale. I use energy to propel me upwards in small bursts.

What is this new creature? Are we the same, by Design?

"I am Dying. Please. "

Another tendril wraps my waist and squeezes.

I can feel it Breathing. I can feel it Dying in the Deep.

Dying where I used to Be.

I am grasping upwards, praying to my Soul. It pulls me Further down, as I can no longer tell if I have progressed toward Sky or Farther into Its Well. . .

"I am Good. I am Great. We can see the suns together if you stay."

My legs grow numb as it squeezes, I Cry as I begin to grow Weak.

I spend what energy is Left, to Create a Beam of blinding Light.

Gods help Me!

"Do you know Love?" "Have you Seen Hope??"

Desperation Bred in its Long Bones. Stray Tendrils sway helplessly around Me.

I look down to See tiny red Moons.

They swirl and Dance to a Song I now hear.

A Song I've sung for Years.

I am now Deeper in the Void.

'Where did you hear this song? You have been Dying, for how long?' I say to the DarkBeast below.

I cannot look down for I am swimming upwards. Focusing only on my beam of light.

My freedom, I am so close!

I unlock power that I haven't seen before and I smile.

Hope knows. I will be free. Hope knowing, I Can Be.

"How many suns have you seen? I have seen millions. " It begins to shake and I can feel the waterworld shifting and closing in on me.

Then Its Voice reaches far into my mind, like a Spear, " Are you. .. Her? ?" ManyTongues begins to rise at the sudden realization.

"Flee!" SpiritBird Screams

I am then Made of Fire, My alternate form,

burning the tendrils that held Me Down.

Ablaze with Strength, I am no Longer Bound.

I Turn to the Deep to see the Monster below.

It has Many Faces and Many Arms. "Don't Go! Don't Go!"

It groans and Struggles

to Stand Up.

Arching my back, My Fire Wings Fly Up to Surface, I am Sent to Sky

Here time has passed as The GreatSun Shines.

I Greet the Eyes.

and I cry.

A Tender Gift

from my ThousandTries,

I am Weeping as SpiritBird Forms,

Her Wings Enveloping,

Her Grateful Seeing,

Me not Greatly Harmed

I am then Rocked into a Slumber

I Almost Laugh into my Sleep

She Smiles into My Dreams

NeverEnding

Stuck

It reached out to me

like Rope

Tethered me!

I choke

It breathed in me
like Smoke

Release Me!

I croak.

I strained against the Burden,

of My Staying Soul

Making Hell into a Heaven,

I Did Hope . . . 

Lives

Like Lovers

through the Times,

I dont know why

You choose to die

You could be something else, 

That Shines 

.

Visionary

My Eyes are Tired, Yet I cannot Sleep, Am I Awake? Is this a Dream? I squint to Look, But I cannot See, Did Something Change? Am I, Me?

You

Of

Fire and Earth.

Quenching your Thirst,

You must have Time to Burn.

Oh,

“Erratic” is “Love”

Pumping your Heart

Maybe You Must have Forgotten.

Hm.

The Pain in my Bones,

is an Echoing Sun

Let your “Fire” Rage On

Lest your Lust Lose its 

Luster....

This House

Yellow

Beige

Darker Yellow

Lights That make My eyes Tired

Colours that fill my Head with a Constant 

White Noise.

Shades that make me nauseous

Gives me a Dull ache

Like a Dream I can't quite remember

But I know the Feeling

The pretentious warmth it conveys

as if it is trying to be something brighter

than what it really is

Dull.

Yell.

Ow.